NyQuil this

This is probably the result of being totally worn down following our vacation, Saturday Funday with the girls, a Bills victory on Sunday, major Sunday flirtation (I know, I don’t usually mix business with pleasure) and two very busy days at work Monday and Tuesday.  I felt a little off at the office yesterday but by the time I got home last night, I was miserable.  There was a throbbing pain shooting from the base of my neck into my shoulders and down my spine; it was severe enough that I almost had myself convinced it was meningitis.  I know I shouldn’t even say that, but as I crawled into bed I was in so much pain that I was certain it had to be something serious.

I woke up at 2 am and the perceived meningitis-induced pain was now shooting through my ears and around my skull.  I swear to god.  I had that familiar dread of knowing I would eventually have to swallow- knowing that as soon as I did I was going to wish that there was broken glass in my throat instead of whatever this was.  Then I did that thing I’ve been telling myself for months that I have to stop doing.  I panicked.  What if I needed to go to the hospital?  What if I passed out from pain? What if my lungs started to fill with liquid and I couldn’t breathe?  What if I needed a kidney?  Who is on my beneficiary forms?  God, I didn’t leave that guy as my emergency contact did I?

While 6+ weeks ago, I probably would have had a full-blown panic attack, complete with a sleepless night and uncontrollable tears, this time I willed myself to throw back the blankets, open the window for fresh air and simply get a glass of water and aspirin.  After an unsuccessful raid on the medicine cabinet, I made a mental note to become the type of adult that keeps cold medicine on hand for times like this.  I eventually fell asleep but instead of counting sheep I counted all the friends I could call if I did need that ginger ale…or that trip to the ER…or that kidney transplant.

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